Reiki, a Master, a Pearl and a Healing

Background
Went down to Sale Moor to do my Reiki Level 1 with http://www.smiletherapies.co.uk/ It was powerful stuff. The energy was really flowing and the core essence that I became aware of when I was reduced to nothing all those years ago was plucked from within me. I couldn't understand. Afterall, this was the thing that remained untouchable, the very core essence of me that could not be reached. It was when I felt this inside my hollow shell all those years ago that kept me alive, kept me going and showed me that I did not need to give up.

The Master
Yet here it was removed from the protection of my belly, held aloft by my Reiki guide, an oriental Master. He asked me what he should do with it. I was unsure. However, it felt safe. I thought I needed it but as soon as he plucked it from within me the word 'surrender' crossed my mind, corresponding with the first angel card I had chosen. Surrender did not sit comfortably with me so, after some time, I placed the angel card back into the pack and shuffled to choose another. After several shuffles, and cards popping out, one card shot out and onto the floor. I wanted to choose my own but felt this must be the one. It was the angel of care. I immediately thought of Michelle when I saw it; I think it was the deep purple colour of the frock and definitely the title. I cried, the angel of care was just what I needed to help with the trepidation that the angel of surrender had raised in me.

Surrender, Care, a Pearl
So here I was, within the healing, my eyes closed, the outline of my body glowing green and my stomach in turbulence, having had my core plucked from me. The Master had said 'Ah I think I can see the problem' and just reached in, no warning. 'Surrender', I heard. The angel of care made it feel alright. The core was blackened, scorched with the onslaught it had faced. I couldn't understand. He asked me what he should do with it, 'Should I put it back'. I don't know I thought, I don't know. I don't understand. I fell back. How could I live without my essence, the very core of me? Then revelation. 'It's a pearl!' I deduced, 'its just something I've protected and it doesn't need protecting any more.' The Master smiled. 'What should I do with it?' 'I don't know', I said still uncertain. Maybe cast it out of the window but I felt this was not right. Eventually, I said that I needed to see it gone. The Master held it between his thumb and index finger and passed his hand across it. I watched as he magiced it away. I felt unsettled. I had said 'Surrender' was wrong yet it was exactly what I needed to do and only with the strength of the angel of care had I been able to do so. I feel if I had not reshuffled the pack then I would have said to him to put my core back, feeling that I was not ready. I would have not seen it for what it was.

Elation, Freedom
I felt elated, I just wanted to smile and say 'Yes, yes, yes!' into the real world but I did not want to disturb the person practising her Reiki on me. My stomach was free. I was free to create a new pearl, a new life to ready myself for the future. A future that did not include protecting that I had succeeded in protecting, myself. I could now let the self go and create a new one.

Affirmation
After the treatment the Reiki teacher Susannah and the student told me that the pendulum had gone mad over the Sacral Chakra, exactly where my experience had taken place. I had not even told them my story. I was feeling a sense of loss and uncertainty, unsure as to whether I had done the right thing. They had picked up the turbulence. Without knowing they had affirmed my experience.

Reiki is probably not something that can be proven by today's science but it is real to those doing it. This experience has shown me another dimension to my life and has helped place a period at the end of one lifetime and create space to start anew.

Healing Hands, Sleep, Balance
Afterwards, I gave a treatment of my own. It was powerful. I sought to achieve balance, replace the raised chakras into the body of my fellow student and help them into a smooth, steady spin. Within a couple of minutes she was deep asleep, her head in my hands. She did not awaken until after the hour long session. The balance sent into her was beautiful and Susannah even reported that she too had become caught up in the healing as I worked the Reiki deep, my hands floating around the chakras and balancing them with each other, spinning in time. Lost in the spell, Susannah had looked up and at first didn't know who I was. After the session the student spoke first said she felt absolutely wonderful, never better. Susannah reported the spinning sensation of the chakra she had picked up when moving to the student's head. I smiled. Everything I had done had been felt, achieved and affirmed. the guides had stood and nodded too.

The Healer
Now graduated to Level 1, I can now give Reiki to those who want it free of charge. Friends and family need just ask!

Peace and love to you all.